Fresher Flash Flood.

This is a thing. I wrote this thing roughly a month ago. Things have changed a bit since, but these feelings bubble up occasionally.

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Updated Jun 20, 2013

I have been attending college for just over a week now. The culture shock isn't as much as I'd expected; the population is as diverse as diverse gets, and everyone has a decent enough demeanor. Nobody bothers or picks on each other, so long as said victim isn't being a huge prick.

It's just as the Internet said it would be.

However, what no amount of askreddit threads and yahoo answers about college could ever prepare me for is the horrible loneliness.

The loneliness that stems from not sharing common interests with almost anybody, leaving you, quite often, with no one to talk to; no one to freak out about things with you. I suppose that's the price you have to pay for possessing such a vast, diverse college student population around yourself.

That, and the dreaded feeling of you being deluged by the fresher flash flood. A sickening amalgam of the despair of drifting apart from the rest of the crowd, and the hopelessness of not being able to do anything about it.

There's so much change. It's almost too much to experience all at once, and at the end of it all, you're all alone. Floundering, gasping for breath in your own little puddle of misery and self-pity.

Of Sentimental Disney Movies and Death and Stuff.

Call me emotionally unstable, but i tear up every time an animal dies in a movie i'm watching.

My mum tells me i cried every time i watched Lion King. Starting from back when i was the age of three. But that was because i couldn't climb inside the tv and sing "Hakuna Matata" with Timon, Pumba and Simba. Or so i'm told.

Human deaths in movies don't interest me much. But when Mufasa, or Bambi's mother die, the
waterworks just start flowing.

•  Lion King: "Oh gawd why can't i get inside the tv?!" *cries*
•  Lion King (Again): "Noo! MUFASA!" *cries*
•  Bambi: "I hate man!" *cries*
•  Marley & Me: *cries*
•  Deathly Hallows: "Dobby! D:" *cries*
•  The Princess And The Frog: "No tiny firefly you can't DIE!" *cries*

I was reading a comic strip earlier today. Not the usual "Funny-ha ha" comic. This was one of those which fill your heart with sadness and make you all teary-eyed.
It's about this guy whose pet dog passed away, and how he realizes how one doesn't appreciate something until it's gone for good.
(The said comic: http://www.funnyjunk.com/funny_pictures/1527673/Baww+comic )

That, and the gloomy weather and endless rain got me thinking about death, and stuff.

Hence the gloomy blog post.